ok. today i have time to blog.
co camp is over. how i wish it lasted longer. throught it i learnt alot about myself somehow. now i seriously think i don't know myself any longer. am i those calm type or crazy type? my emotions can change so drastically under different circumstances la.
ok. 1st day was dazu as usual. after that, we were split into groups. i was in plotz with (too many ppl that i don't want to list all). after that we had interaction. wendy (group leader) nvr come, and yuline (agl) need to do night games, so me and seok xian took charge. so unprepared. din't even know what to do. ok, so this year we ran around and we got the most points in the end for the murder (7 1/2). but we got 3rd just because other groups were able to get how it ended. next we went for meeting? debrif? whatever it is lor. then talk. then went to bath. then went back, supposedly to have hweekay breif us bout our stations tmr, but she say mine too complicated and never. so lingered ard and in the end went to the vending machine which many ppl's drinks failed to come out. so i bout a dunno which drink. and out came more than 10 packets lol. so we took it and shared it among ppl in the concourse.
2nd day wake up had mifen for breakfast, and then it was dazu. somehow i think i did ok la. but ppl always say my tempo got prob. not that it doesn't. just that if you really want to maintain and you see the WHOLE CO STARING at their scores, it is nearly impossible to do it. then me and simin spent a whole lot of time teaching everyone tai feng. WHICH MOST NEVER SHOW TODAY. grrr. whatever. then it was lunch. but i never eat -.- i was planning the guan mo hui with simin. only to realize LATER LATER on that she ate. oh. i feel so scammed. anw, the station game began, and i was bored waiting. last station. but luckily clarence came along, so i had some1 to talk to. and my station is just crap. the cane can't be in place one la. next is telematch and cap's ball. which turned into water game. i got into the warfare thx to mervin and simin. they gang me! zzz. so i was like take a pail and went looking for them. i splashed simin a little then don't want le. dun feel good bullying her. so i went chasing mervin like a madman. and in the end alot of us ended in the boys toilet splashing mervin. and halfway thru i rmb someone (chinny?) asked if she can splash me and i stood there for her to splash. so wet so cool. and i cut my hand. and thx to hongchew and his alchohol, its quite pain. but actually still ok for me. then bbq. was playin zhong ji mi ma with fiona jing wei liming huiling jinjia yanzhou. so fun. then halfway thru we just keep going 'eeee-yo' so fun. so we're called the funky club. whatever lor. and then halfway thru bbq linlaoshi came. ENTING IS SO CUTE. so fun. so i accidentally let slip that i wanted to murder him =x joking. i'm sure linlao shi dunno my blog? and i was mostly hanging out at mervin's group. wanted to talk to him for some reason. i thought that the others were just not the right company to talk to at that time. so i went crazy that night. and i shouted when making announcement for guan mo hui. IT WAS SO COOL. i can SHOUT. weee. and i was quite sure everyone can hear. and xian zheng they all was so lame and lead in a cheer for me =x then me and simin wanted to continue the guan mo hui thing in co room. then halfway there (when turning the corner), frederick gabriel and another michael was sitting there and they were like calling out to me. and simin got scared and din't dare go on anymore. so she went to pull the other guys and we went in to take the zong pu out, so we went to outside concourse to do it with mervin. then somehow i ended up sitting in a circle playing cheat with terie mervin simin jinjia lihan and was it yanzhou? and again we somehow ended up singing feng nian ji by 'pak'-ing lol. i rmb is simin who started it (oh yes, and this reminds me that we din't even start on the arranging. looks like it really is going to last till next year? =x) . then somehow AGAIN i was learning/playing cards with xian zheng. and i went to sleep on the table.
3rd day. guan mo hui is just a disaster. and it was partly my fault. 1st is cuz they were all late and we had less then an hour for it. next is the bars which was set the day before was very disorganized in my phone (simin said 'now i know why you can't be a musician. so messy) break my heart la. my dream. *piang* ='( and halfway through the ruan part, I DISTINCTLY THINK MY TEMPO IS RIGHT though the whole world think its not. sight. mroe trainin for me then. BUT I CAN BE A MUSICIAN. GET IT? I CAN! ok. calm down pls. next we cleated bunk. OH MY! this is the first year i din't do ANYTHING. the sec 1s did all. THANK LOADS. and then we watched ppt. which binli and seok xian took much effort to make. thx loads to them too. it was dun looking at the pictures. but i dont like the one of me conducting. so ugly. then camp ended and me jinjia chinny lihan eileen and mervin wanted to go 85 eat, but mervin got thing in the end. lol. so once again its the 5 of us. we ate, but the rest were just too tired, so we also din't talk much, end it ended by jinjia going off and me and chinny finished our last game of cai quan. she's still lagging abit though. and i went home to continue some music, and fell asleep awhile and watched tv.
today is just crap. IM SO SORELY DISSAPPOINTED AT PEOPLE who never 'yao'. i'm am SO pissed with co. simin is too. please don't dissappoint us anymore. and to those who think i'm a idiot who can't do anything, and is wasting everyone's time during sectionals where i conduct, i won't blame you all, but here, i will tell you all that i spend more time studying the score than anyone have practicing their own part. i am confident.
and to those who simply can't understand the hard work many of us put in for you to succeed, it's is time to put differences apart and PLEASE PLEASE work towards the same aim everyone has in their heart. i just KNOW everyone has the disire to show the school we cna do it. but we will never achieve anything without trying. time is only precious if we do not waste them. and please show me and those who care for all of you that you all can understand and really just put in the effort and time to do better. we don't even have one month. this is not a request, it is not reprimanding all of you, for my part at most, it is begging all of you to do it. maybe not for you alone, but please, for CO.
also, i hereby make a promise for all to see that i really want to TRY to change for the better. i REALLY don't want to do anything crazy of askew anymore. i just want to leave a nice impression before i leave. i don't deny i have many flaws and that i abit mental, but trust me i will try to change. behold.
to end off, i still wish to repeat that i am on the verge of collapsing no matter how little i show it, and PLEASE, for the last time, i have done loads and please show me that all of you can do you little parts to make the goal in roars of applause.
