hah. there's SYCO tmr. and gosh. i think i forgot all the songs already. and it's just 2 more weeks to concert. have to practice hard for the upcoming week. guess i'll end up in co room almost everyday. luckily i have the key =) and YES! AHSCO is going to be back SOON. and then i can ask people help me play my song. though i wonder if there will be many who is willing to help. and i'm going to see bingo soon. somehow..so guess my song can get a review soon. don't wish to show him the concerto yet though. take things slowly hehe. patience is a virtue, and take things step by step.

by the way, mid year was quite terrible for me. although it's the best results i have ever gotten for an SA. L1R5 20. and i am totally unhappy about mrs lam. well. she meant well for me, but it cause me to flunk my chem. in a way or another. but it is all because i'm an abnormal person and that her psychological attack worked adversely on me =(
she said i failed my paper 2, so i got all depressed and gave up paper 1, and flunked, paper 1. in the end i got 63/80 for paper 2 =) but 20/40 for paper 1 =( sigh. 1 more mark to A2, then i can get L1R5 19, out of SSS too...well, but it's not a bad thing though. force me to study, just that i can't have as much time as i would have liked for CO.

and these few days i'm really happy cause i'm now writing a new song, called [in direct translation] happy western dragon. lol. hope it will be yet another improvement since 思绪. i hope to improve. cause i'm studying about symphonies recently. plan to write one soon. symphony poem maybe. for CO as usual =) 4 movemens i will try. haha. high hopes. but i am totally not confident about the quality of my songs. no one to review. i WANT BINGO NOW!

somehow, i got my new computer over exam period. especially when its an exam i did terribly in. ohwells. at least i can now look forward to AHCO and SYCO =) such joy. and more time to do music stuff...i'm TERRIBLY busy cause of my song. getting it ready for printing tmr. just hope the librarian wont scold me for printing too much. sigh. exams are such crap. under so much stress. the more i listen to my song the more i realise i'm just a depressed kid.

lol. it's been so long since i blogged. the one a few hours ago doesn't count =x

my sister is BACK and I'M HAPPY!!!

ohwells. anyway, i a goner for exams this time round. can't really say i tried my best. unless you count my best as trying to write music more than i am trying to study. well, but i did study more than i did in the past. at least i feel that way. oh. and i just wish to tell the whole world how happy i am! well. it's VERY happy. so. not easy to express in words eh? i mean. i finished my song. it lasts for 15mins and 40 secs. so it is as on my computer. and i started on it on...errr. my previous post says. 12 of april. 1 month exactly. see? as i promised. anyway, writing this song has taught me so much. i've learnt so much through it. music aside, it let me think through lots of things. i can only say i chose a great topic for my song. thoughts. haha. really had me deeply thinking at times. sorted out so much frustrations. i LOVE THE SONG. maybe because i understand what i wanted to express. but i don't really consider it nice, nor do i consider it special or unique or whatever. it is just a simple song. wierd perhaps. music is truly a great way to write compo. ANYTHING can be expressed. unlike words, which just CAN'T express some feelings. sigh. i just WISH HOPE AND HOPE some more that one day a CO can play it =) oh and i hope people like it. it's really errr...just...hmm...words can't be used to express this feeling. oh well. it will roll out of the printer soon anyway, i can't use my home printer. plan to use school library's. it's 66 pages for full score. plus 80 pages or so of part scores =( patience. but the point is there's like always someone using computer 12 in school. sigh.

i've thought through. it's worth it, but still, i must have patience. sort things out slowly. it is never a waste to wait. it is always best to think clearly first, what is more important....maybe i do not know.

-oh by the way, i was always thinking to stop writing songs after this. but i have a great topic and starting for a new song. havent started, but i will use the topic if i ever write another song.
the name is 《欢腾的洋龙》. sort of just a dragon stomping the ground and flying around happily, but it's the melody that's more important. have it in my mind already. just hope i wont forget it when i wnat to start writing. is my music career over yet??!??!??!?! PLEASE TELL ME!!!

为了《思绪》词歌，我可算是呕心沥血了。
是凭我自己的思想写的。昨天又给它题诗一首∶

叹天地有情我无奈
英雄者；情关甚难过。纵然落发三千清幽度，在世望穿红尘入佛户。自欺也；春思亦时复：
两相自古固难全，称圣号俗一线悬。男儿哭出长江泪，血气意发何须缓？
其因自得解，十字言成败∶拜倒石榴裙，英雄同枉生！